I had started off like this:
Life is short
But the journey is long
To sustain all along
You gotta be strong
Its difficult to cover the path
All the time facing the fate’s wrath
But still there is a need to grow
There are still a thousand miles to go.
You need an aide by your side
Who assists you during this bumpy ride
That person is none other than your best friend
Guiding you through all upcoming trends
Without whom life is monotonous
Together all your achievements become synchronous.
My heart aches when I see you sitting lonely
While others’ minds remain jolly
I know how it feels when left all alone, tarnished with pain
And when all of them term you as insane
When you gulp down your tears
Your best friend is there to make you cheer.
I’ve been pushed down the cliff hundreds of times
I strive endlessly, but still there’s hope
That someone might just throw down a rope
So today I’ve brought that rope for you
I’ve extended my hand; now its your turn
To make the best out of this
Don’t think of your past which you’ve left behind long ago
Because there are still, a thousand miles to go……………………
…………………and ended up like this:
My dear friend,
Its the moment we meet the last time to make amends;
To clarify your nagging doubts about me
Yes, I was concerned for you
And I got too, my reward
A slap on to my sincerity
A treacherous look onto my honesty
But let me make it clear to you that
Reinforcing my thoughts into yours was not my idea
I can’t change myself for you in a day…….
I’m just…….being me!
Is this wrong?
I know both of us are indifferent, yet different
Similar, but not the same
I realized the fact
Though a bit late;
So no need to get torrent
While I remain insane.
I still love to remember the first day
When we had met
I was happy beyond imagination
The wildest of my dreams were coming true
I had got a cool friend: Brand new!
At an unknown place, where all I had was my own disregards for self respect
I had believed that you, my friend, would come to my aid
What else do I need, in this transitory world?
Your faith and attention……….
Relieved me from all my tensions
You have no idea, my friend; that you do the placebo effect on me
Lighting up hope on my destiny as far as my eyes carry me;
Although I do need your peace of mind for my mental stability,
I’m not thriving upon your courtesy.
I can’t wait for you anymore.
I’ve just got sick of explaining my inspirations to you……..
Dipped in cries, I now try to pick them up alone.
Yes, alone, as I was always;
On frequent hangouts with depression.
But now, I can’t just stand around in life
I need to accomplish something
I need to move on………
So please, wake up and realize that
You can’t have 2 choices at the same time
The time of making the crucial decision has come.
Either you are choosing me or losing me…………………
The choice is completely yours
But whatever you choose, you must do it well
Don’t keep me hanging, buddy
Or else I’d never be able to get strong and sturdy.
So if you have the guts
Say it straight on my face
“You silly girl, you have no idea about what it takes to be a friend………..
So just get lost from my life; you are unwanted……………………”
Just getting a feeling that my mind isn’t as stable as it used to be…..
But I’ve learnt my lesson…..never to put your heart, soul and trust on people you barely know…..they hurt you because you are not like them…..got a taste of that…..so I keep on cursing myself…..WHY AM I SO DIFFERENT???? Still, I thank you, friend, whose name I’d like to keep anonymous, for making me realise the complexities of life when I joined college….that precarious moment when all the advices of parents were falling on deaf ears….you made me understand that its time to grow up. So thank you, TORCHBEARER.